therapy
what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. i am just getting stronger. what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. i am nothing. i am nothing i am nothing.
don’t reject. don’t fight these challenges. this is good. this is life. this is what is. it is what it is. it is what it is. it is what it is.
i love this challenge. i love my life. i accept, i receive, i take in this experience. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept. i accept.
anything true is everlasting.
there is no “then” that is better than now. this is it. it is what it is. this is what it is.
in the end of it all, we are united. there are no country borders over there. i am nothing but these experiences.
who could ever imagine that my lack of serious romantic relationships would one day jeopardize my right to a secure life. i am much too discerning, much too idealistic, my idea of love much too magical to simply waste it on something unrelated to itself.
10 years is an awful long time to be away from the people and places that have meant something to me for the past 8 years. heck, by that time, i will have grown detached from them. it will be painful, all over again. its that peculiar thing about time, space and experience. i am here now, and want to remain. if i am transplanted involuntarily, it will be a struggle and yet, through this struggle i will dig in roots and make a living. years will pass. maybe 10. and then, given the option to return to what was once called home, i will choose not to. because home will be where i will be, maybe for 10 years. not where i was 10 years ago. and my life, though short, has been like this from the start. i have felt the involuntary letting go of a former life by necessity of building roots in a new place. but how much longer must it continue this way? a right to grow roots deeper than 8 years long. that is what i want.